I told my SheSpeaks friend Stacey that, at some point, I just quit setting daily goals because I could only work on an hour to hour basis. I have had bad weeks before – this was different. It was just a “too much” week. Ever had one of those? About Thursday afternoon, I was just Worn.
Ironic really, because our memory verse was: Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe (Phil 2:14-1). Writing about that on Monday was like asking for it. 😉
And then on Wednesday, I included this definition in my post: Discernment: the quality of being able to grasp and comprehend what is obscure (Merriam-Webster). Well, here was something I could grasp right away: it was time to lower the bar for myself because, on Wednesday, I was still working on most of my Monday list! I was lost, trying to figure out which of the “right” things to do. This is what I was comprehending: Discernment is not a matter of simply telling the difference between what is right and wrong; rather, it is the difference between right and almost right (C. H Spurgeon). How do you know the “right” way to spend your time…when the competing choices are all “good” things?
Sometimes productivity problems don’t have anything to do with wasting time…sometimes you work and work, but don’t really finish anything. Sometimes life’s only constant, is interruption.
Sounds silly, but being overloaded just short circuits my brain a little. When I can’t think quite right, I am reminded that I am utterly dependent upon God. Truth: whether I am coming unglued, or I feel like I have it all together, I am lost without Him.
I keep coming back to this: “It is written, ‘Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every Word that comes from the mouth of God.’” (Matt 4:4). This was Jesus’ response when He was tempted in the Wilderness.
At another time, Jesus said: “My food is to do the will of Him who sent me and to accomplish His work.” (John 4:4).
If I can measure the tasks at hand by the standard set by the LORD in His word…that should sustain me… But often I go running for other ways to find peace in chaos, other ways to satisfy my hunger, other ways to make sense of life when life doesn’t make sense:
- Unbelievable lists – the attempt to master an unwieldy day.
- Dark Chocolate or BlueBell ice cream – wanting to pacify hurt, reward hard work, fill the empty…
- Demanding perfection from myself and others – trying to compensate for the imperfections in my life, to remake it, so it (finally) feels comfortable to me.
All of these? They are a rejection of God and His Word…which says:
- I am the LORD, and there is no other, besides Me there is no God; I equip you…that people may know, from the rising of the sun and from the west, that there is none besides Me; I am the LORD, and there is no other. I form light and create darkness, I make well-being and create calamity, I am the LORD, Who does all these things (Is 45:6-7).
- Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the LORD that will stand (Prov 19:21).
- In His hand is the life of every living thing and the breath of all mankind (Job 12:10).
- But for this purpose I have raised you up: to show you My power, so that My Name may be proclaimed in all the earth (Ex 9:16).
At different times and in different seasons God calls us to new ways. Sometimes we need more structure – sometimes we need more flexibility. And sometimes we just need to listen to that still, small voice…the one that helps us to discern His Will for our day.
I am planning to explore some of these ideas here, over the next few weeks. Meanwhile, I am praying about the direction of the posts I am writing, and the way I spend my time (on all these “good” things)…would you pray for me?
Today, tell me what was last week like for YOU? Quiet or noisy? Orderly or chaotic? Predictable or unexpected? I would love a peek into your world!
Britta ~ I am justAgirl…just like you!